Pull through excruciation, nothing can defeat you.

01 MAPOTI posed #1☺

02 MAPOTI posed #2☺

03 So started trying middle line. That was ma first day.▲-______-▲

04 went to Kidzania, at Kota Damansara, next to IKEA. Oh man! Kids nowadays are way too blissful! They can have so much fun. Not like us, those days, we used to watch cartoons from tapes, going to playgrounds..etc☻

05 A wanted to swimming shot. But ended up heavy rain. So, cancelled.:/
∴ended up self-shots..@@

06 plainly, friday morning. Just being lifeless.▼▲▼▲

07 A pretty sweet letter written to me from a friend at a far far away land! HEHE :3
touched till MAX laaa!!☆

08 MAPOTI posed #3☺

09 MAPOTI posed #4☺

10 study session with le sis and cousin! √ CHECKED us being hardworking! (sorry, the photo is a little too blur..)

©opy®ight photo!!! HAHAHAHA

Hmm.. has been some days not being able to blog. I was sooooo [times infinity --- ∞∞∞] (it's kinda exaggeated, but yea, it's how i felt la) longing to but damn! exams are around the corner. No choice.:/ HAIZ. I have watched Ah Boys To Men 2 (in short, ABTM) as you guys knew since I wrote it on  my previous post. I was so into the main actor! I mean he is just sooooooo cute and awesome!! HAHAHA more to ADMIRE la.. HAHA well, pathetically speaking, he is currently not available!! AWWW (sad) HAHAHA If you are interested as well about him, do click on here and voila. http://joshuatwe.blogspot.com/ ☜

 The first photo taken was where my mom, sis and bro were watching ABTM 1, while they were enjoying, laughing like crazy, I was busy camwhoring. HAHA Realize my hair been really damaged! MAN!! How to solve this problem sia?? It's driving me crazy weihh.. I'm like wearing a broom on my head. HAHA

As the night before I saw some bloggers, instagramers, models, korean actresses having middle line, they look extremely pretty, so I decided the next day to try them once. Well, I ended up.. LIKE A NERD! OMG. FAILED! So it's proven to me that I'm not pretty.:/

On last wednesday, I headed to Kota Damansara with a bunch of kids. HAHA Well, obviously not mine. They are from my mom's taska. HAHA As they have extra tickets, so I just fit in with them. NAWW, you know I look young right? HAHA So it's not a problem to fit in with little kids. MUAHAHAHA XP

Me and those 3 year old kids are actually ♡ equivalent. We have same mindset. HAHAHA jkjk.

After headed up to Kidzania, during the evening, I planned to go for a swim at Bukit Kiara Club since my last swimming was like ... n years ago..>< HAHAHA But too bad, when I decided to swim, it started to rain. I was like 'it's fine, just drizzling, still can swim'. Once I had this thought, OMG! The rain started to fall like BULLETS! Ishhh~~~ Then there comes the thunder and lightning. =.= So I ended up makan only..@@ How to lose weight?!? TELL ME HOW? HAIZ.

Friday. A pretty sad day i assumed. 1st, it's because I'm facing my first paper on Mon. 2nd, mom friend's son passed away on friday morning, we have to attend exequy at night. 3rd, Sat mom's friend wedding. 4th, Sun has to attend cremation. It was so busy that I couldn't even focus on my studies. Not to complain here, but last week was pretty heavy week  for me.

Sharing about the exequy. Well, I personally felt heartache though I don't know the guy personally. I guess I met him in person only once or twice. But his mom is my mom's good friend. So, I felt sad for her. He is going to turn 29 on May, but he died. All in a sudden, he left. A very shocking news to everyone! Especially his mom. The reason of his death, drank coke that contain 5 ecstasy. Then  ‘发羊调’, bitten his tongue, non-stop bleeding, vomit white foam, and he dead. The story line is to be like this. He had a long chat with his sis then they went to sleep around 12+am. After that, around 3am+ his gf phoned him called him out for a drink. So he went to meet her and a bunch of friends. They were in a pub, chilling and having fun. He just drank few sips then he ended up dead. Every of his friends and gf claimed that they drank the same jug of coke, but only his body reacted. Well, guess his time was up? HAIZ. Such a young age. 

∴ We have to treasure every moment with our love ones. 

Went to his cremation on Sunday. It was astonishing. It was scary. It was frightening. It was depressed. Everyone's face covered with tears. 

The weather has been so bad recently. Morning till noon damn hot, it's like ☼100℃. I feel like I'm in a dessert. OMG. Felt so dizzy wizzy. But when it comes to late evening till night, it rained cats and dogs. Weather change to ♧0℃. AIKS. Such big changes.@@

I have been waiting for my letters to come since the day I sent to them. I waited for days and weeks, but they haven't arrive.:/ OMG. Few days back, I saw a postman drove near our housing area, he dropped a few letters into my letter box. So I rushed to take a look. OMG. yesss!!! FINALLY I received one. YEAHHH!!!  HAHAHA Thanks for the replied. Well, hopefully you will make it through with this new relationship la! HAHA I wish you luck.(: And don't remember you promised me, you will skype me once the internet is fixed. You better to call ☏ me through skype aaa!! If not I'll go Aussie whack you gao gao!! HAHAHA :P

As people who knows me well enough, they know how lazy I am. I usually do my revision only on the night before exam. (that's why my results like shit.) So what was my best companion? MUSICs.♩♪♫♬♭ HAHAHAHA I like listening pop danthology. NICE!!! mixture of many songs + remix! COOL!!! 

Well, my 1st paper was tough. Guess I'll probably fail.:/ No excuse for my laziness anymore. Then had my 2nd paper on Wednesday, which was yesterday. Hmm.. slightly easier. ⅔ of my exams just finished. Can't wait for my 1 month + vacation! HOORAY!

⌘There goes my 3rd paper, as well my last paper next tues. OMG. TAXATION. GG.

*Realize I've been using xoxo recently? HAHAHA coz i'm super addicted to gossip girl. They always start with 'gossip girl xoxo' and end with the same thing. HAHA lame. I know.><

*Guess I was really busy this few weeks, so I was not being able to think about you that much. At least, I have not been upset for days. But when listening to some songs, it reminds me of you. I hardly forget how you look, how you smile at me, how you used to tease me, how you say 'I love you' looking into my eyes. I miss those. Every single part of your memories. A lot.

It's 3am. I should jump into ma bed now though I don't need to attend class nor going to college later.

Okay, I'll stop here for this post.(:

△▽ xoxo △▽

Ask.fm

HI HI!!

Just a quickie!! Made a new account on ask.fm today.

It works the same as formspring just that it is on another platform since formspring is closing down.



You can spend a whole day to ask me questions but not sensitive issues (like politics, religious..etc). HAHA How lifeless I am. Whatevarr!! WHO CARES right...?!! Just to make everything crystal clear, nope I won't post comments I deem as inappropriate and offensive and just so every one reading this knows, I don't normally give two hoots because..... at the end of the day, I don't mind, you don't matter.

To the other kind souls out there, if you guys have any questions or good suggestions at all {e.g. good hidden food joints, what you wanna see more on my blog, good music, how's life been..etc} or just about anything under the sky, feel free to drop me your comments!!

see you there!!

http://ask.fm/charmaineksk

△▽ xoxo △▽

Beauty is not caused. It is.

#01 sum up my sunday!

#02 taught this little cheeky girl piano! She's so adorable~ :D

#03 so my bro called it MAPOTI.
-_____________-

#04 how lifeless I am.. HAHA
VAIN VAIN VAIN.
OMG. I'm just so addicted and sensitive towards camera!
HAHAHA

#05 trying many cool new apps through Ipad!! HAHAHA 

#06 a day before my midterm, celebrated my maid's birthday!
It's 14 march, chinese known them as 白色情人节
white valentine's.(:
And so, they colored my hair with chalk..@@
OMG.
DRYYYYYY!!!!!

#07 Her favorite food place.@@ yet the easiest way to gain weight and the most unhealthy place.><
HAHAHAHA
I have been eating MCD almost the past few days.@@
GOSHHH!!
fattening...T.T

Parents were not around and YEAHHH it's our holiday!! HAHA party time! HEHEHEHE :3 We had breakfast and lunch outside. Only the 3 of us, sis, bro and I. Damn cool! First attempt. ONLY the 3 of us.(: HAHA My next year plan! Weee~ Just can't wait to graduate from my diploma. Then I'll go for a long long vacation. Most likely... a year.(:

Super temperamental and even the weather forecast couldn't predict the screwed up weather accurately these few weeks. Ended up, me lost the enthusiasm about going to college because it was pretty apathetic about going. What make things worst, I caught flu, cold, fever, 3 in 1. That's why I have been sneezing like crazy. I have used packets and bundles of tissues. Feel like my nose is gonna fall off soon.:/ but still I have to go for classes because I'm having my last midterm paper on Friday and final exam 10 days from now.): No choice but to stay strong! HAHA 


Here is my timetable for finals:

• 25/3 (Mon) Principle of Finance 9am
• 27/3 (Wed) Organisation and Human Resource 2pm
• 2/4 (Tues) Basic Taxation 2pm

Thinking what to write for this week's post. Hmm.. Did something really meaningful! I attempt my 2nd blood donation since the last time I failed due to underweight.@@ HAHAHA Well, there's a friend of mine, Kin Mun accompanied me. AT THE LEAST, I'm not so afraid. T.T My utmost sacrifice!!! MUAHAHAHA (being vain again) HEHE I was like shouting and screaming when the needle poked into my skin. OMG. Painful!! The needle was thick whereas my vein is small. They couldn't find the right one, so they tried to twist and turned the needle. GOSHHH!! Can you feel the pain? Donated 350ml of blood yet I'm still as energetic as a monkey!

So few weeks of humming and hawing, I finally decided to make the first move by setting up a date to meet my bestie! Which we've spoken about the movie we longed for since months ago---AH BOYS TO MEN 2. We've promised each other to watch the sequel together once it released. Part 1 was probably during mid of December. Yea. I know that was like 3 months ago. Hmm. HAHAHA OMG. I'm so glad that we managed to watch it today!! It's like... FINALLY!!! HAHAHA waited for 3 months.@@ Actually we planned to meet on saturday, which is tomorrow, but.. taxation tutor randomly put up a replacement class on sat. So we screw that 'lovely saturday' date. But I didn't expect we end up meeting on friday. I actually cancelled my piano class on friday because I fractured my thumb few days back. Can't even hold a pen nor play the piano. So lousy right?!?!?! Even thumb got fractured! What the world..-_______- Why I so clumsy..>< HAHA Friends were laughing at me because unexpected things ONLY happened on me.=.=! Our next meet up probably will be on your birthday!! xoxo Love you bestieee!! 

Bad times are just a down payment for the good times.

# when I'm looking towards our direction, you left me alone.

# I sow my dream into the soil, someday it might be real.

# I wanna get rid of my eye bags and dark circles.@@

# letters for the 5 of you!
accompanied by dark chocolates

# one of my bestie!! Laozhuang~ She's in Perth now.(:

# love letters sent, attached with photo of us!
books that accompanied me for the past few days.(:

Life been quite monotony because besides study, is still study. How life 'should really' be as a student I assumed. I really have to start doing my revision, it's super imperative now!!! Gonna face my final exams in 2 weeks time. GOSH!!! How fast another semester has just gone. Nowadays kinda over fatigue due to studies and some other things that leads me insomnia again! Insomnia has been really really severe for the past 2 months including this as well.>< The 3 subjects are way much difficult than I expected. :/ I'm gonna stifles if my life continues being that way.

Well, life been busy but to know the importance of English, I have no choice but to upgrade myself, train myself reading some english novels. My favorite author, Nicholas Sparks! Go take a glance of his books!!! It's awesomeee!!! SERIOUSLY~ HAHA Has been mesmerized by his books. Bought a few of his collection and I'm so addicted into it. HAHA It relits my love for books! OH YEAHHH!!! :3

Had a little good mood last weekend. So I decided to write letters to a few friends and send it to Australia. Planned to send it by this week, so I wrote as prompt as I can. 5 letters, it took me... 2 days~ HEHE The officer said perhaps it'll take 1-2 weeks to reach the destination. Hopefully 'they' can arrive safely.><

I know right...?!??! I gained weight..><  It's palpable right? OH NOOO!!! Should start on diet + go on a detox session!! Shall clean my visceral, especially my intestines.><


I have been very assert that letting him go in front of my friends. When friends asked, "you let go already?" I answered in a very nonchalant way, "OF COURSE! why not?" But really did I? Or just to avoid being questioned by others? I wanna expunge our memories so badly. But my mind keeps on remind me about you. OMG. I'm totally deranged. Frankly, I don't know why you came in my life and just left me like this? You are like fleeting away in my life.@@

I have been so cringed to you since we broke up. I tried to text you, but you didn't even care what I've did. I  find ways to talk to you, asked you out, but you just rejected all times. I don't know what felony have I did that made you stopped contacting me. TOTALLY STOPPED! Not even talk to me once.): Albeit how much you dislike me, angry at me, I don't mind. I just hope that someday you'll talk to me. Hope that you'll have a better life now and in the future.

When my mom asked me about him, I shrugged because I didn't know anything about him now. He refused talking to me. Meeting me.:/ You make me feel like I'm living in agony. I miss you.:/

Life didn't come with instructions, that's why mistakes incurred.

Has been really hectic and packed for this week because tests, presentations and assignment, everything stuck on this week. Was seriously stressed out and tired. I mean I should use EXHAUSTED it's more appropriate. I have been struggling on my sleeps. Terrible insomnia. Till midnight 4 or 5 only I'm able to fall asleep but then my class is at 8. So, I have to wake up at 6.. I didn't really sleep much though. Guess I have uncanny semblance due to lack of sleep. My eye bags, dark circles, my retard-look.>< GOSH!! It's a 100% horrible ghost look. HAHA After 5 days of work hard *cough*, HEHE reward myself with a short break! Had a date with my ex-colleague, Debbie. It's been awhile since our last meet up. Hmm.. miss her~ Went to watch beautiful creatures and dine in at ma favorite restaurant. HEHE I waited for you to come. I thought at least I can see you once after a month + no being able to see you. But, you didn't appear. I was really disappointed. Not the point that you didn't show up. It's about.. not wanting to see me, not wanting to talk to me anymore, avoiding me. It's 5.30am now and I'm still awake. Hungry..@@ Hunting for some food!  :3