Love like you have never been hurt...

 you are wanted to be mine!!!

I was finding words to say, to describe
but somehow everything was gone in my mind
I couldn't help but to laugh at myself
laughing at how those paid extra-classes have gone wasted
Yes, I know this is blunt but it's just how I gonna tell you
For now what contains in my head is nothing but 3 Y's
You, you are happy, you love me
I remember your words cheered me up when tsunami knocked my world
Those feelings are like a God hand's lift
lifting me away from danger and I am again happy TeckKuan
Yes, I won't send you those boring "roses are red, violet are blue"
So I send you this
Except, the roses are really red, and you can touch it
Watch out for thorns
I know your fragile heart and I don't want my thorns to hurt you 


OMG. can you believe, my baby wrote this poem for me... random... i know.. BUT it's AWESOME!!! aaaaaa~~~ touched till the MAX!!!!!!! SERIOUSLYYYY~~~ i know i'm too easy to satisfy with just a little thing... but... it really means a lot a lot to me!!! OMGOMG~~~ i can't imagine he'll write those stuff for me... HAHAHA i'm different from some other girls, they get happy and excited when guys give them expensive stuff... or gifts... but to me, as long it's meaningful, it's something priceless, i treasure the most. what it really means to me, is the heart... THE HEART AND EFFORT THAT REALLY COUNTS.(: awww, so sweet of him.(: HEHEHE i love you baby~

Love,

Sweet, Awesome

Sacrificing, Treasuring, Blessing

Love is a painkiller. It ease your pain and heal your scars.

Me and you.(:

It's only words, and words are all I have, to take your heart away


MUAHAHAHAHA can you imagine i'm writing poems!!! HAHAHA learnt some simple poems today.(: pretty simple and easy~

Invisible,

Spirited, Speed

Exciting, Running, Longing

Legs that are invisible.

FOOTBALL!

author: Charmaine Kok

 

Swan

Pairs, Passionate

Trusting, Loving, Everlasting

Lovey-Dovey Swan.

Forever.

author: Charmaine Kok

Cloud

Light, Flow

Raining, Lighting, Cooling

Cloud is like a cotton candy.

White

author: Ho Kar Lok

Man

Muscular, Hot

Dreaming, Protecting, Hunting

Man is a good partner.

FRANCISCO LACHOWSKI!!!

author: Charmaine Kok

Sunrise

Hope, Dream

Waking, Waiting, Working

Breakfast, Lunch, Tea time, Dinner

Clearing, Relaxing, Sleeping

Short, End

Sunset

author: Charmaine Kok, Ho Kar Lok

Sport Shoe

Sporty, Natural

Walking, Jogging, Running

Garden, Track, Club, Ballroom

Tiring, Working, Dancing

Elegant, Beauty

High Heel

author: Charmaine Kok, Ho Kar Lok

the above poems are all COPYRIGHT!!!

HEHEHEHE

Every failure is a step closer to success

he is hawt like s***!!!! HAHAHAHA

OMGOMG!!! 2 presentations in a day...>< ME and HE on friday... kinda worry about presentation... though i know i'm a not bad presenter!!! HAHAHA maybe a future lecturer??? HEHEHEHEHE but i'm not ready for any presentation yet...>< super nervous... extremely worry... haiz... scared weihhh@@ i want HOLIDAYSSSS>< super packed schedules everyday... worth it i think... i'm sorry if i have put everything above you and you guys... my beloved friends! for sure i'll find time for you guys:DDD HEHEHE love lots <3 

Love is like an eagle, it flies to the sky

went to catholic high school again!!! for SPORTS DAYS!!! hmm... was pretty cool coz kc don't separate to different color of houses... each and everyone of us represent our class only...@@ cool weihhh got competition for the deco!!! red: tumberlina, yellow: circus, blue: atlantis, green: tinkerbell, purple: sun wu kong.. LOL... HAHAHA the deco was awesomeee!!! hard work were all paid off!!! met my little cute friend, hui wai... eventually is kar wai, but i don't know why she named herself hui wai??? HAHAHA the weather was HOT!!! then went home to bathed!!!
  

can you imagine people wearing formal dress taking public transport? that looks weird right...@@ HAHAHA i know... the guy sitting beside me kept on staring at me... people around looking at me like i'm a weirdo? HAHAHA TT night!!! yeapppp:DDDD i got a ticket from one of my cheer coach!!! weeeeee~~~ cool sia@@ i'm VIP ooo!!!! yeng horrrrXPPP HAHAHA everyone wore super formal!!!! i thought i was kinda OVER... but... compared to others, they were toooooooooo scaryyy!!! more like prom night lorrr>< HAHAHA the performance kinda... dropped my specs off... maybe my expectation too high?? HAHAHA but but... there's still A compliment~ their deco was great!!!! CREDITS to that.(: the show just started then i left le... hanged around the college... and it started to rain... left super early... HAHAHA people starts at 6pm... ends at 10.30pm... i left around 7.30pm....walked around... 8pm++ then went home... so bad right? but... no choice... seriously [bad]...>< HAHAHAHA non wonder not many went... HAHA why is my weekends ended so fast??? tomorrow week 9 leee..): having IA test for tomorrow. Thus, fri having ME and HE presentation...>< hmmm... my primary best friends dated me next wed for lunch!!! have we'll have lots of fun!! HEHE 

Life is tough, but you must be tougher

 spagetti with chicken

 spagetti with meatballs

 pizza

 hot dog bread and chips 

 tofu cheese cake

  my caramel latte... it taste bitter... i don't like coffee...

 above: kar lok, bee looi, me

bottom: xue li, wai ying, woan ying

Let's take a look at the set up of whole restaurant.(:

 birthday girl

  

MY DARLING!!!!

went to celebrate woan ying's birthday!!! we planned to wear dress~~~ so, everyone did!!! HAHAHAHA we are sweet like honey!!! HEHEHEHE celebrated in klcc, charlie brown~~~XDDD AWWW, snoopy looks cuteeeee:DDD and as well as charlie brown~~~ the food was not bad... we had tofu birthday cake for the birthday girl... and it's tiny...OMG. HAHAHA went to MANGO!!! OMGOMG~~~ SALESSALESSALES!!! everywhere sales:DDD but... i almost used all of my money... gonna save SOME money to buy clothes... HAHAHA saw 3 super nice dressss~~~ gonna get them soon!!! and they will be in my wardrobe~~XDDD HAHAHA then then... went to meet my super super bestie friends!!!! OH YEAH~~~ joo ern and chirawann:DDD MISS THEM ALOT!!! and finally get to meet them... spent some time camwhoring... HAHAHA love the moments where we use to take photos like nerds... HEHEHE after that rushed back for cheer practice... all i have to say is... i'm exhausted now... battery flat... but i'm still blogging@@ HAHAHA need to do props and memorize my script now...): sad... good luck to all of us, group 2...@@

When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be


since i left kc, i thought life might be miserable... most importantly, LONELY... if people knows me well enough, they probably would know that i'm super cannot tahan loneliness... i'm leaving all my beloved darlings and go somewhere i'm not familiar at all, to restart my journey. but i didn't know my life is soooooooo meaningful now.(: i met more friends. friends that i didn't know at all. friends that i didn't ever think of... eventually we are so close to each other now.(: i'm so proud of myself!!! hmm... everything just come like this...naturally... i can't hold on to the past forever. i should look forward instead of looking back... let my past be one of the best memories, and now create another new one.(: new chapter of life.(: memories of family, friendship, and love. I seriously felt that now is the PERFECT timing... where i'm having good relationships with everyone. having the fullest life ever.(: though is tough and pressuring, i'm still happy and looking forward for everyday to come.(: i think i'm having a life which is now reach to the peak.(: everything seems so wonderful! life been really awesome!!!

Courage to begin and courage to succeed!

#01 poster for the movie!!!

#02 take a look of my director---- GABRIELLE LEE HOOI MIN

#03 testing for the scene...

#04 i helped to paint for the wardrobe.(:

#05 OMG. the face expression of both... it's a contrast!!!

#06 before the last few scenes.(:

#07 class shot... VENUE: CATHOLIC HIGH SCHOOL.(:

#08 busy having my lunch? tea time? i also don't know how many meals i had...@@ HAHA

#09 after our last scene!!! BEHIND THE SCENE.((:
i miss you guys lots><

#10 my camera man!!! yeng sia@@

#11~17 hard work of all the crews...

#18 OMG. this photo is EPIC man!!! HAHA electric shot? kena hantu? HAHA

#19 i wanna be director too!!! cool sia@@ HAHA

#20 busy preparing accounting test for the next day...): my face super pailed sia><

#21 i miss you guys soooooooooooooo much!!! darling joo ern and loveliest kimmy.(:

#22 my cutiessss<3

#23 i always beh tahan his hairrr...@@ but... everyone has it's own choice right... i have no rights to say NO><  HAHAHA

#24 awww, the photo is sooooo sweet.(: i miss you <3 hope you enjoyed your 9 days trip in australia....):

2 days ago i've shed my tears like crazy... I'm so scared... It became a fobia for me going to cheer practice... I didn't know what makes me cried  ... for like no reason... things been toughed for the past few days... and also the days to come...@@ should i stay or not? I've reconsidered everything, and... decided... to stay back! not because of anyone... but to prove to myself that i'm not timid! i'm not a coward! i should try something new~ i shouldn't give up because a little pressure~ as you know, our team is going to national team this year end! and also going to s'pore for competition. and now, i have to focus my aim! no matter what happens, i should always be strong.(: I must have courage in myself! not to fall easily... what i've chose, what i should undergo now is tough, but it will be a pleasant memory.(: i believe, "if you want to succeed, you have to face the failure..." and so, i trust that i can go through all these tough time because i know there's many people around me to comfort me and care for me.(: what makes me happy now!!! that's the day to come!!! TOMORROW~~!!! WEEEE:DDDD my movie is gonna screen tomorrow night!!! at DEWAN ASWARA...@@ don't know where is it.... but... i'm extremely happy!!! HAHAHAHA "WHERE'S MY SUNSHINE"... was the movie i shoot during february.(: it took me 2 days to finish up the whole movie... and i remembered because our director done with the film as fast as possible... we ended acting till late midnight... i went home around 3am... the next day i'm still having class and also test@@ but it was really an awesome memory to me and my fellow best friends.(: i miss acting!!! SERIOUSLYYYY@@ days without was kinda lonely at FIRST...but.. i think i have used to it... coz there's still many friends there for me... HEHEHE